Welcome to Cyd Tells All
Introduction
Well, it's official. I've decided to start writing (and publishing) the blog posts that accompany my podcast! It took me a while to get here, but here I am.
Oh, who am I?
I'm Cydney, also known as the Self-Care Dealer, Queen of Self-Care, and Boss Lady. I've got a lot of nicknames, but you can call me Cyd.
Why Did I Start My Podcast?
I'd actually been thinking about starting a podcast for a while—most of 2023, in fact. After going through a breakup and dealing with various stresses in my life, I realized I needed a space to talk, vent, and share my journey.
Plus, if one more person told me that my voice was so soothing and I needed to be on a meditation app or have a podcast, I was gonna tell y’all to create a petition. That way I’d have no choice but to go for it because of the sheer amount of people and the guilt of seeing a petition started cause I was not giving the people what they wanted. - giggles - I’m (mostly) kidding.
The Journey So Far
The 2020s have been a rollercoaster and 2023 was the Year of Audacity in the worst way.
That being said, it forced me to enter a phase where I had to set better boundaries, stand on business, and move away officially from being a people pleaser. On top of that, I finally embraced that for most of my life, I operated in my masculine energy.
This was due to abandonment issues stemming from my childhood and taking on too many responsibilities that were not mine to carry over the years. And, naturally, that made me vow to embrace my divine feminine* side, seeking peace and flow in my life.
At the same time, I was processing all of this, and a (mutual) break-up of my only long-term relationship ever while still living with said person until he found a new place, I went to therapy for the first time. I had been thinking about it for years and it felt like it was time. Turns out, I was right and it was absolutely game-changing for me.
I didn’t have many sessions with my incredible therapist through BetterHelp, but she was a helper/healer like me and I learned a lot in that short time. Things like how to genuinely let myself cry and feel my emotions, rather than bulldozing through them or trying to explain why I didn’t need to feel such things. And, I mean, ugly-cry, not crying at soldier homecoming videos and sweet moments in movies which I always do.
I learned that I was giving my power away and constantly giving it to other people, but had to take accountability for my healing. OOF.
It’s so funny because I talk about the Ladder of Accountability all the time in professional settings, but personally? Yeah, I was LOW on that ladder when it came to certain areas of my life. I’m human. I’m not perfect.
The first episode I ever recorded for the podcast, which is a shambolic (chaotic) introduction was some time after therapy, after saying “God, it’s you, me, and Peanut (my cat) locked in for at least the next 3 years. I’m listening. What do you want me to do?”
And so I batched out episode after episode at like 2 in the morning on June 25th, 2023 and I don’t think I told anyone. Queen of moving in silence, ya know?
*Note: For those who don’t know, everyone embodies masculine and feminine energy. If you don’t believe that, I’m not the person for you and you won’t relate to my blog posts. — Anyways, think of feminine energy as the more nurturing, compassionate, gentle side of ourselves while the masculine is more protective, firm, and about respecting ourselves. The adjective “divine” describes the elevated versions of these energies. Divine feminine energy is about receiving and being in a state of flow while divine masculine energy is about providing and being in a state of doing.
Why This Podcast (and Blog) Matters
I’ve tried starting other podcasts and blogs for other passion projects, but none of them felt quite right for what I wanted and needed. I wanted a place where I didn’t have to compartmentalize myself. I could be silly, serious, nerdy, divine, weird, ambitious, extra, and still giggle throughout each episode so I created this intuitive, tell-all, entirely solo podcast just to have a space to be my whole, authentic self.
No editing, no noise (except Peanut yelling), and pure focus on what God needed me to speak on.
Plus as a Black woman who doesn't fit the stereotypical molds, I wanted to create a space that reflects my unique experiences and intersections. I’m a social introvert, a female founder, a community-conscious content creator, a limitless creative who gardens, writes, and does photography for fun, a girls’ girl, an eldest daughter, a spiritual woman who hasn’t stepped foot in a physical church in years, a nerd who watches anime, Marvel, Disney, and DC, a lover girl who is currently single and childless at the time I’m writing this post, a non-traditional educator that thinks learning is cool but it doesn’t stop in school, and so much more.
We still need more voices in media, especially in podcasting and blogging, that represent the diverse realities of people like you and me. Trust.
Moving Forward
I do my best to create spaces where we can have honest, judgment-free conversations. Whether it's about wellness, personal growth, or just the everyday ups and downs, I want to create a place where you can show up as you are and open up your mind, and maybe your heart too.
And there’s no pressure, just presence.
I’m not putting myself on a strict posting schedule cause that’s not how my intuition works and God doesn’t like boxes. We’re gonna embrace our limitless potential in this chapter and love the journey of who we are becoming.
Now, I’ll do my best to show up once a week on the podcast, and for the next 30 days since I’m playing catchup with the blog. We’ll see how it goes.
Again, this is a journey that I want to stay present in, and I’m inviting you to join me.
